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Monday, June 25, 2018

Deweni Inima : Avantha’s POV : Chapter 2

Hey guys:) How are you doing? I am totally living my life in my home town, well actually stuffing my face with rambutan and oh boy life is good :) So this is Chapter 2 of Avantha's POV series and I quite enjoyed writing it down. The 1st Chapter did get over 100 veiws so I though since there was a set of people who were reading I might as well put up the second chapter. So guys this chapter is set right after Avantha and Anuhus patched up things and I have tried to put forward what I think Avantha's mindset was after that incident. Of course this might be one of the most horrible piece of writing you have ever read but I hope you guys let me know what you feel and whether I should actually continue a few more chapters on the same topic. So I hope you enjoy this read :).

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“Wake up sleepy head! Wake up…”

“Dewmi? What… are you doing here? Why was I …sleeping …on your… lap?”

“Dewmi? You idiot it’s me…its Anuhus…Wake up you drunkard!”

Ughhhh! Shit! What the hell was that dream….Why was I sleeping on Anuhus’s lap? What did I drink last night…”Vodka…Tequila and one Bloody Mary…” Ughh…Why is there a voice in my head…who is he? God I think I just had too much last night…But wait…Anuhus did come last night….he was there…he told Ashoka to keep away from his….”Brother” and he also called me “Buruwa”…”Haraka”…well I did deserve that didn’t I. I’m just going back to sleep…it was all just a dream…he said something about making our dad proud…going back to school...he will help me…I said something about Dewmi…about being able to die for her…Shit! I did not! I did not just tell bro about Dewmi! Shit…she is his little sis…God…he will kill me...it must be a bad dream….”sleep away Avantha...sleep a bit more…you are just tired”…Dewmi…

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Yesterday night was just too hazy to remember in a certain order of events but if everything I remember is true I just patched up with bro…with my Aiya…Urghh calling him that is kinda weird…haha but then he is my Aiya, the one that I denied for so long. I just didn’t have the guts to meet him up and talk to him but then I did make progress didn’t I? I called him up to ask him to come for dad’s funeral. I had to do that; Dewmi was so scared that my mom will make a scene there; I knew Anuhus would think the same but no matter what we are brothers and even though dad was one horrible father to Anuhus he deserved both his sons to be there at the funeral. Dewmi deserved to know that I accept the fact that Anuhus is actually my brother.

She never tells me thing straight up but when she talks to me I know she is trying to put me on the right track and the first step in that right track is talking to Anuhus or at least that’s what I think. Dewmi just wants me to succeed in my life and she is trying her best. God…she is my whole life…I’ll give her anything…even my life…I donno where I’ll be without her…after dad’s death even though I never told anyone, I was in a very dark place in my life. I just wanted to drink and drink and die. I was so down that I just wanted to give up on myself, I have heard some people call this depression and that must be it because all I felt was sadness and I was depressed. Seeing Anuhus and Udeni aunty crying in front of the cemetery didn’t help things at all. All my life I was told that I was born with the silver spoon in my mouth. I was the son of a world famous cricketer and I had enough money to do whatever I want. At least that’s what I thought until I met Anuhus.

He was just a “bastard son” according to my mom, and I was told he didn’t have anything I had but to me he had everything I cared for and that was love. All my life I just wasn’t given enough attention and the only attention I got was because I was Ravi’s son. I tried to hurt Anuhus so many times just to see him fall, I despised his happiness in small things in life…I just wasn’t content. People thought I hurt him because I was carrying my parent’s anger but no, that wasn’t it, I was just a jealous guy trying to hurt his own big bro. At one point I was just confused as to why I did the things I did because they just didn’t seem to hurt Anuhus, in fact it just made his stronger and it was only when I met Dewmi that I understood that what made Anuhus stronger wasn’t Samalka’s love but his family…his family who did so much for him and stood behind him every time he needed them…something I knew I would never have, until I met Dewmi…she just so easily filled up that void I had in my life and meeting her was like getting my life back…no matter where I went wrong Dewmi was always there behind me with as a constant source of love and affection and she…she was my family…the family that I craved for…for as long as I can remember…and she was the one who helped me get all those dark, depressing feelings away from myself…

“You love her don’t you?

You love her more than anything else in your life.

Admit it Avantha, just admit it. You just live to see her smile…”

Yes…maybe I do…maybe that is what this feeling I have is called…

Patching things up with Anuhus was something I did think of after dad’s death but then I never had the guts. I just wanted Dewmi to see that I can change...that she was the reason I was changing but I did so much wrong to Anuhus that I just felt he would never accept me as his brother. How can he do that when I was such an asshole to him… god…I never knew that having a person calling me Haraka was going to bring so much happiness…haha he did seem to love the idea of being “big bro”… Even after that I just didn’t have the courage to call him my bro but when Ashoka came up to hit Anuhus that was the limit… How dare he lift his hand to my bro? Who does he think he is? Anuhus is Ravi Fernando’s eldest son, my big bro and nobody lifts their hand on him…not if I am around…and that’s when it just blurted out of my mouth “Meh mage sahodaraya”…there...it’s done…he can deny it now…lol…those words were so awkward…I have never called him that…haha…god I must have been really drunk..

“Denna hithenawa homba galawenna…BURUWA…Yaman gedara!

Ba…gedara yanneh kohomada…

Meh meh meh….palayan gedara…”

Okay…I must be a little bit more drunk than I thought I was …Buruwa…how dare he call me that…I am Avantha…Ravi Fernando’s son…wait…what? He didn’t deny being my bro, did he? What did he tell Ashoka…he said something like “Ai meh wada walata muwa gawala ahuwenna eppa…”

That’ all I remember. It is just so hazy…I just wanted to fall asleep. He just pulled me away from Ashoka and we went somewhere…ohh I got down at my house… but then my house never had a stone bench…Bro had to call up Aunty to tell her that he is not coming home that night…that was hilarious..here was the guy who like a lion shouted at Ashoka but became a scared kitten in front of his mom…come to think of it… that is exactly how I act in front of Dewmi isn’t it?…Maybe Dewmi learnt some things from Udeni Aunty… then he started the lecture… the lecture by his honorable Big Brother Anuhus Fernando…

“Dad never wanted you to destroy yourself like this…come back to school…I’ll help you…”

It was just so easy to talk to him, to trust him. Haha it was like meeting a best friend. I just wanted to tell him everything I was confused about and just ask for advice. It was so easy to call him bn and machan. It was like I have always said those things to him. I was like talking to…Dewmi. For the first time here was a guy who wasn’t with me because he wanted my money but because he was my brother and he really was concerned about me…blood was really thicker than water…and to think I lived 18 years of my life without this guy…

“That’s why you spoke about Dewmi with him, wasn’t it?

It was so easy to trust him,

so easy to tell him all those things you had to keep to yourself…

so easy to look up to him… so easy to ask him for help to get on the right track…so easy to feel like you have known him all your life…

So easy to call him big bro”

Yes, yes it was…..

[To be continued….]

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Thursday, June 14, 2018

Deweni Inima : POV Avantha : Chapter 1

Janathri Weeratunga 9:44 AM 0 Comments

Hi guys :). So this is a Fan fiction that I came up with based on Deweni Inima. We have not to this day actually seen Avantha's point of view (POV) on the situations he has faced. It has always been an one sided affair and in this post I try to look at his side of the story. This is the first chapter of this fanfic and if you guys think it is good I would continue it. I want you guys to check out this post and leave your view on this chapter below. If you guys want any other characters point of view you guys can let me know below and I would try my best to respond personally. As you guys know this is a new concept with regard to Sri Lankan dramas and this is my first time therefore I would appreciate it if you guys leave feedback in the comment section. So let's get to business shall we? Hope you guys enjoy :)

It’s been over 3 months since dad’s death. The pain seems to linger as if it is trying to give me more pain. It has come to the point where I really cannot remember a morning in which I haven’t woken up with what seems to a constant hangover. Could life get any worse? Thinking about it now, I cannot remember a point in time in which I have felt more helpless. All my life my dad has been behind everything I did, and even though I did not acknowledge it he has always been a constant source of support and guidance. I hate myself. I hate myself for the person I have been and everything I will be and for the rest of my life I would regret every single moment I had taken Dad for granted. What am I without him? What will I become? What is the point of living with this lingering pain and regret? My mom just seems not to care, she simply goes on with life as if dad never existed, as if she just did not care what has happened to him or for that matter what would happen to me. She continues her daily life with the same naïve outlook on life; she continues to spend her times at spas or doing more shopping and I sometimes wonder whether she really cared. I have not for once seen her, even at the funeral crying with that look over her face of complete devastation that I saw in Udeni auntie’s face. I cannot help but feel that dad knew all along who loved him for who he is and who loved him for his money and that realization alone shatters me.

For many nights now, I have spent outside home trying to find the solution for this lingering pain at the bottom of an alcohol bottle but rather than a solution all I have got are hazy nightmares and a constant pain behind my head as if it is going to explode. No matter how late I am or even if I never come home I just feel my mom really doesn’t care. A/Ls are just a few months away and I haven’t been to school in about 4 months and it has come to the point where I just want to give up. Who really cares about what happens to me? Dad was always looking into what I was doing and wanting me to excel both in my studies and cricket but now who really cares about what happens to me? Grandpa has been in his “moods” constantly since dad’s death and I don’t think he even knows that I don’t go to school anymore.

The only reason I am still living, still breathing, still smiling is because of one reason alone and that is Dewmi. I have had my share of women and that’s even before Samalka, and I have never really stuck to one woman which is apparently trait I got from grandpa. It was just so easy to enter in to a no-strings attached relationship and just let it flow. If, with time I felt like I needed change I could just go on to the next woman without thinking twice about the one I just left. I have to say that it was quite easy to get women when you are Avantha Fernando. I had the fame, the money, the good looks and with a practiced charm I could get any woman my heart desires on her knees begging for my attention. At least, this is what I thought until I met Dewmi.

At first, she was just another girl, just another challenge which I dared myself to win and nothing more. She was Anuhus’s sister and what better way to get at him than through that poor girl and she seems innocent enough to fall for my trap. At least this was the plan until my heart decided to say otherwise. Everything went smoothly until my dreams were filled with her smile and her constant bugging became endearing. At that point I knew that life wasn’t going to be the same again. Here was a girl who knew that I was the devil himself, a girl who knew that I did the worst things possible on her brother but yet she decided to stay back and fix the devil himself. Up until that point of time I did not know that I was a broken person who needed to be fixed. Her gentle nudging slowly replaced my want for a mother who cared, and her playfulness replaced mine with responsibility and for the first time in my life I really wanted to change myself for her sake.

All my life women and friends came behind me for money or my fame, but for once here was a woman who stood behind when everything left me just to ensure I did not give up on my life. I try hard to not show my feelings, I simply cannot bring her into my monstrous life before I decided to change, but change is hard to come by. I try to change my ways but I have gotten used to them and now like a drug I cannot get away from them. I feel it is far too late now. Sometimes I wonder whether I have gone to the point of no return and deep down I just feel that even if I do try I will just be another disappointment and that’s what I fear. She is my life and I fear that I will disappoint her as well and it is too hard to bear to see her hope collapse right in front of her eyes.

I am not worthy of her time or affection and I try hard to show that I will never be the man she wants me to be, yet she keeps coming back and every time she does I feel drawn to her like I have never felt before. What is this feeling I feel for her? Why am I trying to be the good guy in front of her? Why am I trying to push her away even though I know very well I will not survive without her? Her strength and love gives my life hope but I know that if she dares to get close to me she will be destroyed. My actions will destroy her just like they did my dad and I just cannot survive that same earth shattering pain for the second time.

No, it’s easier to push her away and show her that I am a good for nothing guy. Then, at least she will find someone worthy of her love. Yet why am I drawn to her? Why does the simple action of sending her home alone at night cause me to lose my sleep? Why does it cause me to panic and run after her even if I’ll most probably be killed by her dad? Am I going mad? I just wish dad was there, he would have helped, or would he? I just feel life was just better when I was the bad guy. Who am I now? Can I even survive without my life beside me? It’s comforting to lean on her strength knowing that she is out there watching out for me waiting patiently tell I change but what can I give her? I am nothing but a shadow of my former self so will she still be with me throughout my life being my pillar of strength…my mom couldn’t do that and nor could my dad so how can she be there for me even when I am just nothing but a disappointment?

[To be continued…]

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Saturday, June 9, 2018

Deweni Inima Overall Review 2018

Janathri Weeratunga 5:43 AM 0 Comments

Hi guysJ. How are you guys doing? I am kinda fine but I seriously think I screwed up my finals but let’s just leave that stuff alone, shall we? As you guys already know I wasn’t able to post much this year, this mainly due to my laptop breaking down and most of my finished articles were destroyed with it. I wasn’t quite able to recover anything at all from that laptop and here we are starting all over again. During my time off a lot has happened in Deweni Inima and we will just look at the main events and look into it. There is going to be a lot of fan girl “rubbish” as this post progresses so please excuse me:P. So let’s get started shall we????

The most awesome, amazing and magnificent thing that happened during my “break or my breakdown(as I would like to call it)” was DEWANTHA and omg am I not hyped. It is after quite some time that Sri Lankan screens are seeing some real “romance” apart from the “let us hold our hands” or the “there is a lot of sexual tension in this room” scenes commonly found in many Indian and Sri Lankan dramas. At the beginning of their love story there were loads of gaps within the character development aspect of Dewmi and Avantha. This was basically because I feel that the writers at this point seemed to have focused mainly on “marketing” Anuhus and his love story with Samalka and those “ohhh so not funny” scenes involving Mike and Raneh. So when it comes to the character development of Dewmi and Avantha what we basically got were the very “good” Dewmi and the very “bad” Avantha. There was no middle ground and half the time I felt Avantha was just a playboy after some sex rather than real love.

This of course was proved wrong as the drama moved forward and the writers started to give more emphasis to Dewmi and Avantha. What I love about these two characters is the fact that they are both equally flawed, neither of them the “epitome’ of “good” or “bad” unlike either Anuhus or Samalka. It is because of this that I started to love this couple. Looking at Dewmi prima facie we can say that she is sweet, kind, from a good family, good daughter and most probably a well behaving girl. However, when you get to know her the writers show us hidden depths within her character. We get to know that she is passionate and that just like every other girl out there she has a very romantic at heart and just like so many of us out there she fell in love with the “bad boy” (not to mention the hottest guy on Sri Lankan telly right now!). Throughout the time we watched the drama I feel that we have gotten to know many sides of Dewmi as oppose to Samalka. We have seen Dewmi as a mother figure, a sister and of course the most playful honey bunny on planet Earth.

This is something I have not seen in Samalka’s character as most of the time she is crying in front of people to get sympathy and attention. The writers in this way has screwed up her character so much that there seems to be no return. I personally feel Samalka’s character no matter what has to leave the drama. As far as I am concerned this may happen in the most tear jerking way possible such as through a cancer or maybe they can make her go mad with jealousy causing her to be psychotic or we can have her commit suicide and then show the lasting impact she had on the lives of others (suicide is a big issue in Sri Lanka right now after all) .However I do have to mention that I do see a psychotic side in Samalka when she talks to Anuhus with regards to Lihini. I know some of you could feel otherwise but I feel the way she brought up the notes, wallithalapa and the bike ride are downright creepy as going out with her does not mean Anuhus cannot get to have other girls as friends, right? Plus she is not even Anuhus’s girl friend to that matter as they are not officially dating like Dewmi and Avantha.

In addition to this I feel she is just not the right type of girl for Anuhus. Anuhus is a guy who is carrying the weight of the whole world on his shoulders. He has his mother’s problems, he has his own “dad issues” and recently he has the “my little brother is screwing up his life” issues. All these issues means that Anuhus has so much responsibility on his shoulders so I feel that the girl he gets need to be someone who can carry that weight with him not someone who has her own luggage and emotional issues which would further add to Anuhus’s burden.

If you look closely you will see that when Anuhus needs Samalka the most she was not there for him. When he had “dad issues” and didn’t talk to her for some time she was not worried about what the hell has happened to him (like Lihini did) but rather as to why he didn’t come to check on her mom with her. Even in the situations she was there for him, the most she has done is to cry on him and ask him what would happen to her is he were to fall emotionally. To tell the truth her “whining” is getting on my nerves and her lack of character development is becoming quite obvious. Thus, the easiest option here is to get rid of her as it is quite late to make drastic character developments to her right now (unless her mom gets well).

All in all I feel Lihini is a better option here as she seems the strong type who is a bit shy which goes well with Anuhus’s playfulness and “big brother” features. She is also someone who deeply cares about others and this is clearly seen by the concerned looks she gives to both Samalka and Dewmi and this could help Anuhus a lot as he is in need of someone who listens to his problems and not someone who adds to them. The fact that Anuhus spoke with Dewmi (in a fit of rage) about his dad issues shows that Samalka is not offering much help on that agenda. As a matter of fact how many times have we seen Samalka actually talking about Anuhus’s issues rather than her own? I believe none as I haven’t seen it at all.

Just like his big bro Avantha on the other hand is having similar issues but unlike Anuhus he has a supportive girl next to him whom he calls his “life”. Dewmi unlike Samalka is someone who would keep her problems aside in order to help people she loves. She used to do it for Anuhus but now she is doing it for Avantha. In fact Avantha changed in the most drastic ways simply because of Dewmi and her selfless efforts. In this sense she is one of the fully developed characters in this drama. However I have to say it is actually Avantha who is really the most changed character right now. His change after Ravi’s death is so drastic that I myself cannot believe it is the same Avantha at the beginning of the drama who is now Dewmi’s boyfriend.

Looking at it this way, Keshan is just an amazing actor and he does justice to Avantha’s character. I have personally felt like I went through everything Avantha went through just by Keshan’s acting. He is able to be so expressive that there is no need for words when he is acting to get the point across. Let’s just say that he is just making me swoon every time he comes on screen. His character no matter what has an alpha male, dark yet troubled, loving yet angry, caring yet hates to show it, feature to it which many women in the past has fallen for and as did my predecessors I too have fallen into that same trap. He is basically every woman’s fantasy man and like every other woman I feel he is irresistible: P. The way he hates people interfering in his life but yet really wants someone to look after him to ask him where he is and what he is doing is so endearing that every time he is on screen I have a wide stupid smile on my face….ahhh I believe I am in love.. he is such a cute bag of sweetsJ….Okay let’s just move past that fan girl rubbish (let’s just pretend it never happened) and move on to what I believe this drama holds for the future.

I personally feel that this drama is in a great place right now. Ananda is finding out or hoping to find out about Anuhus’s inheritance, Lihini is falling hard for Anuhus and Dewmi…well she is having the time of her life. I feel the next thing we need is for the brothers to get together at school and maybe have some real bad tension happening between them which causes Dewmi to talk to Avantha and have him accept the fact that Anuhus cares for him. Then we can have them fighting together for their inheritance (kicking Menaka’s ass) and have some real nice cricket matches in between. Have to say that I do miss the cricket talk in the drama as there have been no matches after Avantha left school. I feel that if we do have a match in which the brothers have to work together forgetting all their rivalry then a nice brotherhood can come up…after all cricket in the game of love and unityJ. I also like to see these guys finishing off school and moving on to campus and work and to see how they face their fears and to see whether their love for each other would be strong enough to survive the strains of adulthood.

Overall I feel that this drama has great potential and it is living up to the hype but there are serious plot holes when it comes to character development and issues such as that of Samalka and Mike which needs to be addressed ASAP.

Well then, thanks for reading over 1700 words on Deweni Inima…we part here hoping to meet again in another exciting review on Drama Queen..Don’t forget to be tuned in guys <3 J.