Drama Queen

Hey guys! How have you guys been? I have of course lost track of time being all lost in the vast forest called “law”. Trust me, the wait for results is killing me and I don’t even know where I am heading at this point. So instead of being all lost and waking up every day with no aim whatsoever I thought why not try my hand at my blog again. Haha J  I know it has been long and I really do miss the times I uploaded a post every weekend. Being busy all the time means that I rarely get anytime to post anymore. In addition to that, Facebook has blocked my blog address for some reason and that means I really cannot share my posts especially since Google Plus is no more.  Also guys I really wish you guys comment on these posts (haha). You know it does motivate me a lot to actually keep my promises of posting stuff. So maybe just give me some feedback. …may it be bad or good in the comments below. So let’s get back to busiess shall we? We are back with a BANG!

So how has Deweni Inima been since I took a hiatus? Well it has gone downhill pretty bad. We are no longer in the cricket leagues ladies and gentleman… we are in the middle of a crisis at Ravi’s office which as far as I know doesn’t even make sense. In addition to that, put in Samalka’s sister and a “very angry” Ananda and we officially have A SCRIPT WITH NO DIRECTION WHATSOEVER! It’s basically bad writing just dragging the drama along with no actual development. There we have Anuhus as single as ever and Avantha as in love with Dewmi as he ever was and that’s about it. We basically had an amazing drama butchered, literally butchered in front of our very eyes. I actually feel sorry for the actors in this drama simply because they aren’t even allowed to show their acting skills since they always act the same. It simply seems like the writer is running out of ideas so adding in new characters which make no sense at all.

Before I JUST KILL THIS DRAMA let’s divide up the characters analysis and see where we are heading shall we?

Anuhus

“My poor poor baby” that’s all I have to say about him. He had such potential especially since Raveen’s handsomeness basically made the girls swoon to death (something unheard of in Sri Lankan drama industry in quite some time). He was the perfect character (maybe a little too perfect) and in everyone’s minds he was going to end  up with a cute girl and have his happily ever after especially after all he has gone through. BUT NO! We continuously had the writer giving him one damsel in distress after another until I have came to the conclusion that maybe…just maybe…he will turn out to be Gay! We had Samalka at one point who had some kind of character progress but she basically lived off Anuhus and became an annoying b*tch in the end.  Then we had the perfectly capable Lihini who was such a sweet girl and who had such potential especially since she was not “clingy”. We even had a potential “Anuhus might be in love with her” storyline only for it to be ruined by Lihini literally reminding him of Samalka everyday…every bloody day! I basically wanted to shout “Come on woman grab that cute guy and claim he’s yours without reminding him of his ex -flame everyday!” Even with all that she seems to love him; just that she never seems to have the guts to tell him that, especially with her feeling guilty “going out with her bestie’s ex boyfreind. To me it just seemed liked Lihini always blamed her relationship with Anuhus as the reason Samalka left,  when in reality someone needs to tell her “GARL GET THAT MAN!”

In the present it seems like Anuhus has basically forgotten he was smitten with Lihini just 25 episodes ago. We even had a potential Saheli Anuhus ship with all the slow motion shots and corny music but that was basically put to a stop (thank god because it basically had a “pedophile” feel to it since Saheli was around 16 -17 while Anuhus was well into his 20s plus I saw no chemistry at all between these two).  In the end we have a new character who is apparently Samalka’s sister who is around the same age as Samalka and we are to believe Samalka cannot remember anything about this other sister. She is currently hitting it hard on Avantha (reintroducing him to clubbing and all) and it’s sickening at best.  Her character basically doesn’t make sense as she is so naïve and thinks she is a big shot etc.  Anuhus is obviously smitten by her damsel in distress set up and of course the connection she has with Samalka. At this point I just feel the writer is simply introducing characters to see whether Anuhus will fall in love with them or not. It’s come to the point where Anuhus may simply fall in love with Avantha’s uncle simply because he is a new character.

Avantha

Well things haven’t changed for this guy. He is in love with Dewmi and her father and brother hates his guts. Dewmi is utterly helpless and Ananda continuously blames Udeni for everything his daughter does. It sounds familiar? Oh really? It does? Well maybe, it’s because it’s the same story we have been hearing since FOREVER! J. Apart from the cute physical contact Avantha and Dewmi has their relationship has been the same. They have no “future plans” and every time they meet they talk about their family problems just like they have been since about 500 episodes now. So there isn’t much character development here. We see Dewmi going to Campus, meeting Av on the road, going home late and getting into fights with her family over AV. We also see Ananda angry as he has always been but not doing anything at all about it except his usual shenanigans (getting angry with his wife or Udeni).

We also have Samalka’s sister whose name I totally forgot because she is nothing more than Samalka’s sister. Her character is the exact opposite of Samalka to a point and this is shown by the fact that she likes AV more than Anuhus while it was the opposite for Samalka. To be truthful her name isn’t even worth remembering. She is a similar character to Ameesha since I feel she is here to steal Av from Dewmi especially since she wants AV to go clubbing with her which is obviously going to bring Av’s bad side out again. What doesn’t make sense is the fact that Av knows she is flirting with him but he goes along with it (what the hell is happening). Maybe that’s just how Ravi went along with Ameesha’s flirting while he was in a serious relationship with Udeni. The writer is simply mad… he has forgotten his whole storyline. There simply isn’t much potential in this drama at all now.

Saheli

Finally this girl has some character development which is actually worth me writing about. She is having a cute relationship with Malintha (maybe his name is different  ...sorry about that) the tall friend of Dewmi’s. Their relationship is cute and doesn’t have the “uneasy sexual” tension Anuhus and Saheli’s relationship had. These two are a cute couple, blushing at each other, awkward and ever in love. She even saved up money and bought his a t-shirt which really felt so sweet. These two have a good chemistry between them and it’s so sweet to see. 

It was so cute how Malintha told her in the cutest way that it’s okay to buy him something this time but never do it again since she is using up her pocket money on it. It really helped show that he wasn’t just the dumb guy he shows he is…he has a sweet thoughtful side to him which is so cute. He gives a good vide and I feel he will look after Saheli really well. Given that he is such a big friendly giant when he is with Saheli really shows he has more character than he has shown all this time. There is more to this guy than his dumbness…like I mentioned before he is such a big friendly teddy bear (okay I admit it…I really do have a thing for tall thoughtful cute guys and putting on a big dumb smile while watching his scenes is the only way I can stop swooning in front of the Tv J). I like how Saheli grows cute in front of him rather than “I’m a child” acting she had in front of Anuhus where she always speaks in a squeaky voice. She seems natural in her scenes now and I think it’s because these two have a good on screen chemistry. They are a sweet couple and I want their scenes to be longer and please god just get these two married soon rather than dragging their story line forever.

So that’s about it guys in the 2020 review of Deweni Inima. I give no promises this time but I hope to see you guys soon in a new review.

Hi guys! Hope you guys are doing well? I wasn’t able to post much in the last few years and most of it is because I was way too lazy. In addition, to this I was only pretty much watching Deweni Inima on Tv so my blog turned into a full review site of that drama only. I did have some already written articles but sadly most of these dramas ended even before I had the time to post it on the blog.

Let’s just forget all of that! Today I am here to review a drama which I am sure will become a sensational hit in Sri Lanka. Yes, I am here to review Ravana. In case you guys are wondering why I took so long to review it, well I do have a valid reason. I just wanted to see whether it will be able to keep up with the hype and after about 27 episodes of it and my absolute obsession with the 8.30 weekend slot I was quite sure that this was the real DEAL!

Personally, I have always loved the character of Ravana in Ramayana simply because he was a very noble character and of course he was the King of Lanka. If you guys are wondering why I called the man who kidnapped Sita to be “noble” it’s because he had valid reasons for all the actions he did. He was of course the King of Lanka and was born to Yakka caste Princess Kaikesi and Rishi Vishwamuni. He was not born to be the  King of Lanka and he fought Rama only because Laxman physically disfigured his sister Shurpanakha.  It was basically a simple history and given the many TV Series on it, one could say Ravana is just another story where a villain is destroyed by the hero or where the dark is destroyed by the light or where evil is destroyed by good...blah…blah...blah… overall a boring plot line.

However, this is not the case when it comes to TV Derana’s interpretation of Ravana. They basically made it a storyline where we get to see what kind of a background Ravana comes from. We get to see that he wasn’t merely a bad guy destroyed by yet another avatar of Lord Vishnu. We get to see the story from Ravana’s point of view and just maybe, he is the real hero after all.

When the first episode aired sometime ago I got to say that I did not have much hope for this drama. Most of the “big budget” historical TV series going on right now were more documentary than drama. I personally did not enjoy most of them and I have to say that I kind of skipped them. I always felt that I couldn’t connect with the characters and their goals or ambitions. In addition to this, since I do know a lot of the historical facts behind these dramas I kind of knew who won and who lost way before the series even started. I hate all the series on the rebellions against the British and the ones on the Kings basically because our writers did not seem to take any creative space when creating these dramas and they just ended up being “emotionless”.

A good example of this is the recent movies on Kings of Sri Lanka. In all of them we get the Prince running away from the palace, living as a commoner in a village where the village head has two daughters and both fall in love with the Prince and only one gets to marry him..blah..blah..blah…  In the end of the day, a person not well versed in history of our country would believe that all our Kings ended up running away from home and getting married to a commoner. It’s what I basically call rubbish! Look King Dutu Gemunu was a King who believed in caste to a point where he disowned his only son because he married a low caste woman, so there is no bloody way that he would marry a commoner with no background! They were basically reproducing the same plot with different actors playing different Kings.

Given all this I felt Ravana would be another predictable historical drama which I would give up after 2 episodes. Well, I was wrong on this one. The first episode was just “meh” because it had all the background of the drama and I was a little bored but however this changed after I watched a few more episodes. So even though I knew the Ravana story before I watched this drama, TV Derana has taken what I would call a lot of creative space in order to create a masterpiece.  After a few episodes I have to say that it was like I was watching a high end Korean\English historical drama rather a Sri Lankan series.

In the first episode we are introduced to King Sumali, who is the Yakka King who was ousted by the traitor Kuvera a Deva caste man with the help of the Indian Kings. We get to learn that Sumali is hiding away in his hidden palace and we see a lot of ancient hi tech here which does go along with the Ravana story in general. We get to know his 3 sons and 4 daughters of whom I thought Kaikesi was to be the mother of Ravana. In addition, to this we learn that the third major caste is Naga who are pretty thirsty for power.

A thing I loved about this episode in itself was the fact that they did not make these “castes” inhuman. This was what was usually done in Indian dramas where the castes are given inhuman powers and appearances. Here, we just learn that the Yakka have royal blood which meant they were the only ones who could be Kings of the nation. The Naga were merchants who traded with other nations. The Devas’ were another caste which lived among the Yakka’s. The only ones who did have powers were the Rishi’s who were basically a group of enlightened beings who had the power to foresee the future.

So at this point, we get the basic idea that Kuvera is the bad guy while Sumali is trying to fight a war which he would basically loose because the Indian forces were with Kuvera (who is just a puppet ruler). At this point the great sage Pulasthi makes an appearance to let Sumali know that all is not lost. He basically tells a prophecy about a powerful prince who would be born among the Yakka’s to one day become the nation’s rightful king. He states that in order for the Prince to be born one of Sumali’s  daughters need to be married to sage Vishwamuni  as the Prince needs to be born with both Yakka (for royal blood, fearlessness and strength) and Rishi blood (for knowledge).

This is where the story really gets interesting. So Pulasthi Rishi basically chooses Sumali’s daughter Rakha to be the chosen bride. So her destiny is to be Ravana’s mother or so we are told. However, here we see that even a sage who can see the future cannot really change destiny. The idea behind this “seeing the future” as I see it is very complex. At the point Pulasthi see’s Rakha, her destiny is to be a “prince’s mother” but she chooses a different path by running away from home in order to not marry Vishwamuni.

This triggers a chain of reactions which connects to all the other episodes of the drama. So by running away from her destiny Rakha encounters Malini who claims to be a normal girl who came along to save Rakha and Kaikesi in the time of their need. However, she is a Naga princess who has come in order to find Vishwamuni so that she can give birth to a Naga Prince who would become King later on. So she gets to know where Vishwamuni lives simply by following Rakha. By doing this act Rakha causes evil to follow her which would later stop the birth of the Prince Ravana. So basically, she by her choices changed the future. So what the writers seem to tell us is that even the Rishi’s are not super humans. They can foresee the future because their minds are highly developed but it doesn’t mean that the future they foresee is basically going to come true.  So it can change with any choice the said characters make thus making the plot more complex.

Later on as the drama develops, we get to learn that Kaikesi has a twin sister by the name of Pushpothkatha who is a warrior princess. In this instance we see that she is a princess who is not afraid of destiny nor her duty to her country. She is basically selfless and proud of her heritage. We also see that unlike Kaikesi who is a bit of a hothead, Pushpothkatha is someone who takes precise decisions with a calm mind. At this point we get to know that she is in fact to be the mother of Ravana, as she has the qualities necessary to be his mother.

So what I understood here is that by the rash and selfish decision Rakha made she became not worthy of becoming Ravana’s mother (Pulasthi was not 100% sure Rakha was to be the mother, he too seemed to check her character in hardships before deciding on her ability to raise a strong King). One could argue that if she acted like she was told maybe she would have become the said mother. Even Vishwamuni notices through Rakha’s personality that she would not be Ravana’s mother.  As I said before this drama is complex and sometimes I feel you need to read between the lines in order to grasp what the writers seem to tell you.

This is one of the main reasons I am interested in this drama. If you guys have watched Game of Thrones you guys would understand that the plot itself is complex and something’s you seem to think that you can predict are actually not what you think (Season 7 Jon Snow for example). So in the same way, Ravana is just not a one sided story which you can predict easily. It’s not basically “he is born- destined to be king- takes the throne” kind of story which is basically what Indian dramas show. As of now, I feel the drama is doing a great job keeping its audience at the edge of their seats.

If you guys haven’t still given this drama a try I would seriously recommend you guys to do so. The actors are very talented, the sets are colourful and of course the stunts are pretty good. In addition to this, they have made use of our very own martial arts Angampora and its pretty dope! The plot itself is fast moving for a historical drama and since it is complex and not one- sided it keeps you awake till the next episode comes up. If you guys are not from Sri Lanka then you guys can watch all the episodes on the official TV Derana YouTube channel and they usually put up the latest episode straight after it’s done on local TV.

 And I got to say that there is way more to write about this drama than which I have already written. I can of course make no promises but there maybe two more parts for Ravana coming up on this blog and if you guys are interested please let me know down in the comments below.

Hello guys! I hope you are all good and well and having an amazing 2019. I am of course living my usual pathetic life surrounded by nothing but books. Yes, you guessed it right…I am getting ready for another exam and to any potential law student out there the only thing I want say is “Say good bye to life beyond exams for a few years”. So while I was having my usual exam issues and after my laptop decided to give up on me (AGAIN!), I wasn’t able to play an active role in the blogging scene. Since then a lot of dramas worth talking about have come out and rest assured I will be reviewing most of them.

So leaving all this behind shall we get down to business shall we?

Deweni Inima is just about to hit a milestone…yes ma’am it’s gonna hit 500 episodes today and I got to say that it didn’t feel that way. I mean if it was an Indian drama you would have obviously given it up at about 100 episodes because of its dumb editing and floppy storylines. However I gotta say that even though Deweni Inima did feel draggy and of course depressing (because of Samalka of course) at times I was unable to just give it up. The characters just grew on me over time and at this point they bloody seem real life kids to me. So in this way we can say that Saman Edi did a good job with characters and storyline over time. Of course, there were let downs and plot holes at points but these weren’t so major like in an Indian drama where a dead character comes back alive!

During the time I wasn’t able to write, we all saw Samalka’s character finally leaving the show and this was something I prayed they would do because the character was just R-U-B-B-I-S-H. I am very sorry if hurt anyone’s feeling but Samalka was just a beggar at one point in time and she just wasn’t the girl we met in the first few episodes. Personally though I gotta say I hated Samalka all along. I watched Deweni Inima straight after watching Sujatha on Sirasa Tv starring Nehara Peris and she was a bloody strong female character yet in Deweni Inima Samalka was a a “shee shee foo foo” right from the start. She wasn’t able to give up on an abusing boyfriend and she was begging money…she was unable to feed herself…I seriously don’t know what Saman Edirimuni was on while writing her character! Overall it was a good riddance.

When it comes to her relationship with Anuhus it was what I would call “emotional abuse” on Anuhus just because he had to be with Samalka all the time in her emotional turmoil but when he goes through something she would be like “Anee Anuhus be strong…when you fall like this how I can I be with you” or she wouldn’t even care about it and talk about her problems. Seriously Anuhus deserved someone way better and right I fell Lihini is that girl but as always Saman Edi is on drugs and so he brought in Saheli to kinda screw up a potential “Lihini – Anuhus” love story (Guys look forward to a separate blog post on these two sweeties coming up in the future).

So now that Samalka is out of the picture let’s get down to Saheli... we still haven’t seen much of her and apart from the fact that she looks way older than a 17 year old there isn’t much of a character development to talk about as of yet. Something I noticed was that she is similar to Dewmi at that age and maybe it’s this youthfulness that Anuhus finds attractive in her. Personally she way to old looking and way too whinny to be a 17 year old (I live with one..I do know how a 17 year old girl is). My assumption is that this is just a little distraction for Anuhus after Samalka. After all if he and Lihini get together as soon as Samalka is out of the picture it would put the blame of Samalka’s leaving on Lihini. So maybe Saman Edi is playing safe here. So it’s finally time for Anuhus to make some major mistakes in the “girlfriends department” before he falls for the right girl. That would actually keep things very realistic as in real life guys do go through so many girls before finally falling for one. Of course I can assure you that right at this moment my future hubby is night clubbing with his girlfriend whom he like a fool believes to be his “forever gal” (poor poor sweet hubby XD).

Overall when it comes to Saheli I feel there needs to be more character development and I want to see Lihini being jealousJ. I gotta say that the scene where Lihini, Anuhus, Dewmi and Avantha walked together to the exams hall was just amazing and I hope that it is foreshadowing what is to come in the future.

 Talking of all this 2018 has been a very problematic year for Dewantha. Well of course half these problems were created by themselves as Anuhus correctly pointed out last Friday XD. Our poor dears being teenagers are being rebellious and neither of their respective families are happy about it. It all ended up with Ananda deciding to take Dewmi away from Avantha and Avantha’s family pushing him towards his father’s business. This of course didn’t quite push these two apart but rather pushed the two together. They finally understood that they love each other and they started their relationship. At this point of course what pissed me off was the fact that they did not say their “I love you-s” to each other but then a friend of mine kindly pointed out that apparently in real life they don’t do it that way anymore :P. They of course confessed their feeling to each other through their own song which recently hit 3M views on You Tube if I am not mistaken.

The only issue I had with these two’s love life was the fact that Ananda and his hatred of Avantha kinda kept dragging and Dewmi was torn between her love for her father and her new found love for Avantha. In real life I know that this would be the case but I felt that as it was a drama in the drama world that Avantha and Ananda would patch things up quickly and live an happily ever after.  In addition to this I wanted Avantha and Dewmi to meet up in secret and share tokens of love and stuff but then I believe I need to keep away from Shakespeare for awhile because maybe that stuff doesn’t happen in real life either?

However, real life or not I just want Avantha to understand that even though being a hero makes Dewmi fall more in love with him it does reduce the freedom they have together. He continues to bother either Ananda or Anusha and even though he believes it is an act of heroism and rebellion it does not reduce the chances of Ananda beating him to pulp. His dumb tricks do make a girl swoon over him but it does also make that same girl’s life miserable. I just want Avantha to understand that unless Dewmi and he are patient about their love they are gonna end up in a real bad place if they go on rebelling against their parents. Since Dewmi’s exams are over Ananda might just get her married off to some guy and poor Av would end up being the best men instead of the groom at Dewmi’s 

wedding.

Overall though after school finally ended and so did the exams we can hope for some interesting story-lines hopefully. Avantha has already spoken to Anuhus about the business which means that the 26% and 25% will soon be resolved. Obviously our little baby Avantha cannot fight the demons on his own especially since he is a hot head. I feel Anuhus will be able to calm this guy down and give him some strong advice. Ohhh god...I just hope there will be more bromance in the future...these two are so cute together and its like watching a Korean drama :P. So let's all pray to the drama gods that we will get more bromance as much as we get romance <3.  So cheers to a whole year of Deweni Inima and congratz to the DI team on reaching 500 episodes. 

So guys I hope you enjoyed this review of Dewmi Inima and please don’t forget to share it and comment below on what you feel about this drama or any drama you would like me to review.

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“Wake up sleepy head! Wake up…”

“Dewmi? What… are you doing here? Why was I …sleeping …on your… lap?”

“Dewmi? You idiot it’s me…its Anuhus…Wake up you drunkard!”

Ughhhh! Shit! What the hell was that dream….Why was I sleeping on Anuhus’s lap? What did I drink last night…”Vodka…Tequila and one Bloody Mary…” Ughh…Why is there a voice in my head…who is he? God I think I just had too much last night…But wait…Anuhus did come last night….he was there…he told Ashoka to keep away from his….”Brother” and he also called me “Buruwa”…”Haraka”…well I did deserve that didn’t I. I’m just  going back to sleep…it was all just a dream…he said something about making our dad proud…going back to school...he will help me…I said something about Dewmi…about being able to die for her…Shit! I did not! I did not just tell bro about Dewmi! Shit…she is his little sis…God…he will kill me...it must be a bad dream….”sleep away Avantha...sleep a bit more…you are just tired”…Dewmi…

….

Yesterday night was just too hazy to remember in a certain order of events but if everything I remember is true I just patched up with bro…with my Aiya…Urghh calling him that is kinda weird…haha but then he is my Aiya, the one that I denied for so long. I just didn’t have the guts to meet him up and talk to him but then I did make progress didn’t I? I called him up to ask him to come for dad’s funeral. I had to do that; Dewmi was so scared that my mom will make a scene there; I knew Anuhus would think the same but no matter what we are brothers and even though dad was one horrible father to Anuhus he deserved both his sons to be there at the funeral. Dewmi deserved to know that I accept the fact that Anuhus is actually my brother.

 She never tells me thing straight up but when she talks to me I know she is trying to put me on the right track and the first step in that right track is talking to Anuhus or at least that’s what I think. Dewmi just wants me to succeed in my life and she is trying her best. God…she is my whole life…I’ll give her anything…even my life…I donno where I’ll be without her…after dad’s death even though I never told anyone, I was in a very dark place in my life. I just wanted to drink and drink and die. I was so down that I just wanted to give up on myself, I have heard some people call this depression and that must be it because all I felt was sadness and I was depressed. Seeing Anuhus and Udeni aunty crying in front of the cemetery didn’t help things at all. All my life I was told that I was born with the silver spoon in my mouth. I was the son of a world famous cricketer and I had enough money to do whatever I want. At least that’s what I thought until I met Anuhus. 

He was just a “bastard son” according to my mom, and I was told he didn’t have anything I had but to me he had everything I cared for and that was love. All my life I just wasn’t given enough attention and the only attention I got was because I was Ravi’s son. I tried to hurt Anuhus so many times just to see him fall, I despised his happiness in small things in life…I just wasn’t content. People thought I hurt him because I was carrying my parent’s anger but no, that wasn’t it, I was just a jealous guy trying to hurt his own big bro. At one point I was just confused as to why I did the things I did because they just didn’t seem to hurt Anuhus, in fact it just made his stronger and it was only when I met Dewmi that I understood that what made Anuhus stronger wasn’t Samalka’s love but his family…his family who did so much for him and stood behind him every time he needed them…something I knew I would never have, until I met Dewmi…she just so easily filled up that void I had in my life and meeting her was like getting my life back…no matter where I went wrong Dewmi was always there behind me with as a constant source of love and affection and she…she was my family…the family that I craved for…for as long as I can remember…and she was the one who helped me get all those dark, depressing feelings away from myself…

“You love her don’t you?

 You love her more than anything else in your life.

Admit it Avantha, just admit it. You just live to see her smile…”

Yes…maybe I do…maybe that is what this feeling I have is called…

Patching things up with Anuhus was something I did think of after dad’s death but then I never had the guts. I just wanted Dewmi to see that I can change...that she was the reason I was changing but I did so much wrong to Anuhus that I just felt he would never accept me as his brother. How can he do that when I was such an asshole to him… god…I never knew that having a person calling me Haraka was going to bring so much happiness…haha he did seem to love the idea of being “big bro”… Even after that I just didn’t have the courage to call him my bro but when Ashoka came up to hit Anuhus that was the limit… How dare he lift his hand to my bro? Who does he think he is? Anuhus is Ravi Fernando’s eldest son, my big bro and nobody lifts their hand on him…not if I am around…and that’s when it just blurted out of my mouth “Meh mage sahodaraya”…there...it’s done…he can deny it now…lol…those words were so awkward…I have never called him that…haha…god I must have been really drunk..

“Denna hithenawa homba galawenna…BURUWA…Yaman gedara!

Ba…gedara yanneh kohomada…

Meh meh meh….palayan gedara…”

Okay…I must be a little bit more drunk than I thought I was …Buruwa…how dare he call me that…I am Avantha…Ravi Fernando’s son…wait…what? He didn’t deny being my bro, did he? What did he tell Ashoka…he said something like “Ai meh wada walata muwa gawala ahuwenna eppa…”

That’ all I remember. It is just so hazy…I just wanted to fall asleep. He just pulled me away from Ashoka and we went somewhere…ohh I got down at my house… but then my house never had a stone bench…Bro had to call up Aunty to tell her that he is not coming home that night…that was hilarious..here was the guy who like a lion shouted at Ashoka but became a scared kitten in front of his mom…come to think of it… that is exactly how I act in front of Dewmi isn’t it?…Maybe Dewmi learnt some things from Udeni Aunty… then he started the lecture… the lecture by his honorable Big Brother Anuhus Fernando…

“Dad never wanted you to destroy yourself like this…come back to school…I’ll help you…”

It was just so easy to talk to him, to trust him. Haha it was like meeting a best friend. I just wanted to tell him everything I was confused about and just ask for advice. It was so easy to call him bn and machan. It was like I have always said those things to him. I was like talking to…Dewmi. For the first time here was a guy who wasn’t with me because he wanted my money but because he was my brother and he really was concerned about me…blood was really thicker than water…and to think I lived 18 years of my life without this guy…

“That’s why you spoke about Dewmi with him, wasn’t it?

It was so easy to trust him,

 so easy to tell him all those things you had to keep to yourself…

so easy to look up to him… so easy to ask him for help to get on the right track…so easy to feel like you have known him all your life…

So easy to call him big bro”

Yes, yes it was…..

[To be continued….]

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Hi guys :). So this is a Fan fiction that I came up with based on Deweni Inima. We have not to this day actually seen Avantha's point of view (POV) on the situations he has faced. It has always been an one sided affair and in this post I try to look at his side of the story. This is the first chapter of this fanfic and if you guys think it is good I would continue it. I want you guys to check out this post and leave your view on this chapter below. If you guys want any other characters point of view you guys can let me know below and I would try my best to respond personally. As you guys know this is a new concept with regard to Sri Lankan dramas and this is my first time therefore I would appreciate it if you guys leave feedback in the comment  section. So let's get to business shall we? Hope you guys enjoy :)

It’s been over 3 months since dad’s death. The pain seems to linger as if it is trying to give me more pain. It has come to the point where I really cannot remember a morning in which I haven’t woken up with what seems to a constant hangover. Could life get any worse? Thinking about it now, I cannot remember a point in time in which I have felt more helpless. All my life my dad has been behind everything I did, and even though I did not acknowledge it he has always been a constant source of support and guidance. I hate myself. I hate myself for the person I have been and everything I will be and for the rest of my life I would regret every single moment I had taken Dad for granted. What am I without him? What will I become? What is the point of living with this lingering pain and regret? My mom just seems not to care, she simply goes on with life as if dad never existed, as if she just did not care what has happened to him or for that matter what would happen to me. She continues her daily life with the same naïve outlook on life; she continues to spend her times at spas or doing more shopping and I sometimes wonder whether she really cared. I have not for once seen her, even at the funeral crying with that look over her face of complete devastation that I saw in Udeni auntie’s face. I cannot help but feel that dad knew all along who loved him for who he is and who loved him for his money and that realization alone shatters me.

For many nights now, I have spent outside home trying to find the solution for this lingering pain at the bottom of an alcohol bottle but rather than a solution all I have got are hazy nightmares and a constant pain behind my head as if it is going to explode. No matter how late I am or even if I never come home I just feel my mom really doesn’t care. A/Ls are just a few months away and I haven’t been to school in about 4 months and it has come to the point where I just want to give up. Who really cares about what happens to me? Dad was always looking into what I was doing and wanting me to excel both in my studies and cricket but now who really cares about what happens to me? Grandpa has been in his “moods” constantly since dad’s death and I don’t think he even knows that I don’t go to school anymore.

The only reason I am still living, still breathing, still smiling is because of one reason alone and that is Dewmi. I have had my share of women and that’s even before Samalka, and I have never really stuck to one woman which is apparently trait I got from grandpa. It was just so easy to enter in to a no-strings attached relationship and just let it flow. If, with time I felt like I needed change I could just go on to the next woman without thinking twice about the one I just left. I have to say that it was quite easy to get women when you are Avantha Fernando. I had the fame, the money, the good looks and with a practiced charm I could get any woman my heart desires on her knees begging for my attention. At least, this is what I thought until I met Dewmi.

At first, she was just another girl, just another challenge which I dared myself to win and nothing more. She was Anuhus’s sister and what better way to get at him than through that poor girl and she seems innocent enough to fall for my trap. At least this was the plan until my heart decided to say otherwise. Everything went smoothly until my dreams were filled with her smile and her constant bugging became endearing. At that point I knew that life wasn’t going to be the same again. Here was a girl who knew that I was the devil himself, a girl who knew that I did the worst things possible on her brother but yet she decided to stay back and fix the devil himself. Up until that point of time I did not know that I was a broken person who needed to be fixed. Her gentle nudging slowly replaced my want for a mother who cared, and her playfulness replaced mine with responsibility and for the first time in my life I really wanted to change myself for her sake. 

All my life women and friends came behind me for money or my fame, but for once here was a woman who stood behind when everything left me just to ensure I did not give up on my life. I try hard to not show my feelings, I simply cannot bring her into my monstrous life before I decided to change, but change is hard to come by. I try to change my ways but I have gotten used to them and now like a drug I cannot get away from them. I feel it is far too late now. Sometimes I wonder whether I have gone to the point of no return and deep down I just feel that even if I do try I will just be another disappointment and that’s what I fear. She is my life and I fear that I will disappoint her as well and it is too hard to bear to see her hope collapse right in front of her eyes. 

I am not worthy of her time or affection and I try hard to show that I will never be the man she wants me to be, yet she keeps coming back and every time she does I feel drawn to her like I have never felt before. What is this feeling I feel for her? Why am I trying to be the good guy in front of her? Why am I trying to push her away even though I know very well I will not survive without her? Her strength and love gives my life hope but I know that if she dares to get close to me she will be destroyed. My actions will destroy her just like they did my dad and I just cannot survive that same earth shattering pain for the second time. 

No, it’s easier to push her away and show her that I am a good for nothing guy. Then, at least she will find someone worthy of her love. Yet why am I drawn to her? Why does the simple action of sending her home alone at night cause me to lose my sleep? Why does it cause me to panic and run after her even if I’ll most probably be killed by her dad? Am I going mad? I just wish dad was there, he would have helped, or would he? I just feel life was just better when I was the bad guy. Who am I now? Can I even survive without my life beside me? It’s comforting to lean on her strength knowing that she is out there watching out for me  waiting patiently tell I change but what can I give her? I am nothing but a shadow of my former self so will she still be with me throughout my life being my pillar of strength…my mom couldn’t do that and nor could my dad so how can she be there for me even when I am just nothing but a disappointment?

[To be continued…]

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